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I'm not good at making decisions. Sometimes I just.. I just talk to my self, what the hell I am?! WHAT DID I DO? HOW IT CAN BE LIKE THAT. HOW STUPID I WAS. DO I HAVE A BRAIN? Why I always making wrong decisions? Not always, but recently. Sometimes what I decided, my decisions were not always equal with my heart. Sometimes I made X decision but my heart said 'cmon dinta, its Z. Its Z' but STUPID-LY, I DIDN'T follow what's been said by my heart. And it has happened SO MANY TIMES. And I regret it :""(. I should learn more ;"""(. I should be contiguous with my heart. I have to hear my heart first. I am in regret.
And dear my lovely parents :""), I know it. I just knew it. I know something you think I don't know. I kneww it. I just knew it. How much I love both of you, you know I love you so much, and I'm so sorry for my self. I'm just a mess. I love both of you, so much. I don't know what to say but SORRY, SORRY, SORRY. I'm sucha trashy things.
You see me as a pearl, but actually I'm not more than just a dumbbell :""(.
I love you both so much much much. Sorry for all the things :"(.
I just realized how much you love me :""( its more than just touching feelings. I don't know what to say but.. I love you both. Both. You are the most meaningful,precious personin my life :* :* :* :* I love you ::"""((((( :*