its just my point of view.

hello bloggers! today's 23rd december 2010. today i got the report from my school. yeah. i dont know why, this semester feels like.... i don't really really care about my score that i got. SERIOUSLY. with the bold font SERIOUSLY. i just take it really really easy. i don't study for the score. seriously, this semester i dont really really care about my score in the school.

I just study and focus on how i understand the lesson. how i catch the lesson. how i understand what teachers give to me. how much i try to understand the lesson. and effort that i made to understand the lesson. I don't really care about the score. when my teachers give materies for me i just went to focus on them, and when examination came, i just did with my best and did it by my self as much as possible. (EXCEPT ON NIHONGO & HISTORY,EXACTLY.) the most important thing is, I HAVE MADE AN EFFORT. yupp! i know my effort isn't like the others. I didnt study hard like the others did. but im proud to be my self. why? im not the one who makes a mountain out of a molehill. because i put the score's problem aside. i know my capability. i believe god gives everything thats good for me.

but you know what?

something that makes me sad is, sometimes someone judges another by quantity that they get & not by the quality that they have, ironic.

and.. sometimes parents see their children's achievement by the score that their children get, not by the effort that their children make.

but, fortunately my parents are the best parents in the world. they never forced me to be what they want to be. they never forced me like ' DINTA, YOU HAVE TO GET bla bla bla bla' and when i didn't get it they get upset with me, NO!! big NO!! my parents arent like that.

they let me to be what i want, they let me to be a kite, i can fly how far i want,but when i have outed of the line, they will pull me come back.

They never forced me.

but I CAN SEE what they want me to be in their EYES.

I CAN SEE THAT CLEARLY.

they want me to be the best. they want me to get the great score in my school. they want me grow up and they want to see me smart, they want me success. they want all the best for me. and so do i. i want to be the best for them, i wnt to give my great score for them, i want to grow up and show to them i can be smart and i can be success, i want to make them proud of me..

Hello mama, papa, might be someday you will read this, you will read this post,

i just want to say that i love you so much. wholeheartedly. i love you from my deepest heart. i love you no matter what will happen to me, to you, i will always love you. You know what? you are my inspiration. Both of you are the greatest and the best parents in this world. i really really thank GOD I have parents like you. mama, papa, you know what? i always try with my best, to make you proud, but i often fail, i havent made you proud of me, but SOMEDAY, I PROMIIIISSSEEEE! I PROMISE I WILL MAKE YOU PROUD OF ME, I WILL MAKE IT, I PROMISE. I DONT KNOW THE KIND OF THE WAY BUT I BELIEVE GOD WILL GIVE ME CHANCES FOR IT.

I want them do pilgrimage together, forthe umpteenth times, with brother, with my money.

I want you to see me be a successful woman , i want you to see me in UI, universitas indonesia. I promise i will make an effort of it. I PROMISE. I PROMISE.

i love you, papa, mama. no one ever loves his/her parents like i do. I love you.